Showing posts with label YOU. Show all posts
Showing posts with label YOU. Show all posts

Sunday, 12 November 2017

Winters, Coffee, and You

November 12, 2017 0 Comments


Oh dear! You again. I was just feeling low and that picture of you, it just gave me a curve on my face. Your voice, listening to your voice makes my day. Isn't it strange that just seeing a person or listening to them, speak, makes one feel honored? Yes. I feel that way, even if anyone says that I have gone crazy and I am acting like a stupid. People can say anything like I care. But anything you say to me any words, well they are my treasure. I'll keep them buried in my chest and they are what I am proud of. People said, I don't feel happy, I am not smiling, but who is gonna tell them that it is because you are the one who makes me the happiest. Even the simplest things you do for me, what you say to me when you honor me, tell me how adorable I am, it all just makes me happy, just like that. Like, like an instant coffee. Oh, what a combo, coffee is to you, your talks, your smile, and the scent of your body, the winter nights, both scents make me go crazy and addicted. 

There is nothing more I would ever want to have if you are beside me because that is more than enough. I embrace everything related to you. I would love to do all the stupid things and be as stupid as I can because I know you won’t be judging me. This is what makes you special and yes, you are your own kind of adorable and beautiful. I wanna tell them all if you wanna see me smile, bring YOU because you make me.

Sunday, 15 October 2017

YOU and Addiction

October 15, 2017 1 Comments

You say I should stop and I need to control myself with this addiction, tell me how? Because I can't figure it out. You think I can really control? No, I can't. Okay, but before you answer that, let me tell you what I have been through. I can’t think of anything except you. I feel I am lost somewhere and I can't even find any way back to where I started. Maybe, if I go back, I can un-do things and then YOU, damn you won't be there on the new paths and even the previous ones because they have been un-done. I have lost my focus and there is nothing I want other than you. I want more of you with every passing day. Even there are times I eat and drink, but I don’t feel it, I just know the name of what I am consuming, but how it tastes, well, I got no idea. I wonder if my taste buds are working. 

You know what I wish? Every single morning when I open my eyes, I really pray that you are just beside me, either in a sound peaceful sleep or looking at me and smiling. what else? I wanna travel to all the beautiful and stupid places with you. Explore around and look how you see the world. I wish I could just tell you every stupid non-sense thing I have done in my life and even the entire day, whether it is of concern to you or not. I just wanna say it all. If you could listen to me......if you could listen to me.......when you tell me things about yourself I always want to listen because I just love doing that, I have no idea why, no matter if they make a sense or not. I am all ears and listening......listening and asking questions, so you may feel and realize how special and how important that talk is to me and more than that, YOU. 



You know what is worst? When I do things which I shouldn't have said or done I feel it would have been better if I couldn't breathe... it is sensitive of me, but I feel it so deep that mostly it seems as if something will happen to my heart and I wouldn't be able to move ever again. That may sound filmy and unrealistic, but let me tell you anything related to you is not a drama or a story for me. It is real. Damn. Another stupid thing I wish for is to sleep while listening and talking to you with my days starting and ending at you and your laugh. How could I forget that...I love all of you in all your forms…..
Tell me now, how should I control this addiction??